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What is one of your favorite trips that you've taken? What made it great?

The best trip I’ve ever taken was our summer (their winter) in Australia and New Zealand in 2018. I had dreamed of visiting Australia for decades and it seemed a shame to be so relatively close to New Zealand and miss it. Together, Alice and Jason and I spent seven weeks on the other side of the world and it was amazing.

I used frequent flyer miles to score business class tickets for the three of us, which was a huge win. Being able to lie down meant that we could sleep more or less comfortably on the long stretches. We flew from Boston to Toronto to Beijing, where we had an eight-hour layover—unfortunately through the middle of their night—and then on to Sydney.

We spent a few days there, climbing the Harbour Bridge, touring the Opera House, and taking the Manly Ferry, among other highlights. We flew down to Tasmania for a couple of nights and got to do the night-feeding tour at the Bonnarong Wildlife Refuge and meet koalas, wombats, kangaroos, and many other native and invasive species. Then it was back to the mainland to visit our friends, Sharon & Peter Monk in their marvelous fairytale home a couple of hours east of Melbourne. We had a couple of days in that city, where we had a fantastic meal at Sunda and took the tour of places used in Miss Fisher’s Murder Mysteries, one of my favorite television shows of all time. Leaving Melbourne we drove the Great Ocean Road and cut up through Grampians National Park—stopping for an eight-course tasting menu at Wickens, considered one of the best restaurants in the country—and then on to Adelaide. We flew out to Kangaroo Island and had one long day exploring the phenomenal scenery and wildlife there before flying north to Alice Springs. We drove from there to Kings Canyon and then to Uluru and Kata Tjuta. From there we flew to Cairns, where we snorkeled on the Great Barrier Reef and had the best raw salmon of my life on the deck of the Prawn Star.

Our tour of New Zealand started in Auckland, where we jumped off the Sky Tower, the tallest structure in the Southern Hemisphere. We drove from there down to the glowworm caves at Waitomo and had a magical evening in Hobbiton, including dinner at the Green Dragon, before making our way to Rotorua where we got to ride the Sky Swing and visited a restored Maori village for a feast and dancing. It was a long, beautiful drive to Wellington, where we visited the Te Papa museum and had a tour of various Lord of the Rings filming sites. From there we took the ferry to the South Island and spent a couple of nights on a llama farm while touring the vineyards of the Marlborough region. From there we drove down the coast to Christchurch, where we learned about the devastating earthquakes of the previous decade and witnessed their rebuilding efforts, and then on to Dunedin and out the Otago Peninsula to watch penguins coming ashore at dusk. After a night at Lanarch Castle—the only castle in New Zealand—we drove along the south coast through Invercargill and out to Te Anau, the gateway to Milford Sound. We got incredibly lucky—the road that had not been open for days was cleared with just enough time for us to make a cruise of the sound (technically a fjord) and visit the underwater research station there before dusk. Another long drive took us to Queenstown, where we had another Lord of the Rings tour, went bungee jumping, and Alice scored a gorgeous leather jacket in one of the many second-hand shops. From there it was over the mountains to Franz Josef, where we got to play in the hot pools in the rain and have a helicopter ride to the top of the glacier the next morning in clear sunshine. The TranzAlpine Railway took us from Greymouth back to Christchurch for our flight back to Australia.

Our plan had been to fly back to Beijing from Brisbane, so we spent a couple of nights there in our most memorable accommodation: a luxury flat in one of the many highrise buildings with an infinity pool on the rooftop. We also got to see Dark Emu, a contemporary dance piece based on a non-fiction bestseller about Aboriginal farming and land management practices that exploded the myth of terra nullius that English colonists used to give their invasion of Australia a legalistic mask. That brought us full circle from seeing the stage dressed for that show on our tour of the Sydney Opera House, weeks earlier. Our flight home was re-routed, so we had to fly back to Melbourne, then back through Beijing and Chicago, before a final short hop home to Boston.

Why was it such a great trip? Obviously, the places we visited were amazing and we were very lucky with all our travel and accommodations. We got to have once-in-a-lifetime experiences almost every day. It was great to have so much time to explore both countries—while we certainly didn’t see everything, we hit a lot of highlights and felt like we really did have a chance to learn and experience so many wonderful places. But the best part was being together. For seven weeks we were together just about every waking minute and that was always fine and most of the time awesome. We all had a great time and still talk about the trip at least once a week, two years later, and I expect it will be the standard against which we judge other trips for many years to come.
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Was there anything unusual about your birth?

I was born in the middle of an ice storm.

My mother was forty-three at the time and the doctors had warned her that I would almost certainly be deaf and might well have Down Syndrome. My father was recovering from kidney surgery.

Mom had arranged with a neighbor to drive her to the nearest hospital—half an hour away—and bring our car back so that my father could get his rest and join us the next day. But when the labor pains began around ten o’clock at night and my mother called Mrs. Bailey, she was too afraid to drive at night on the icy roads. My mother said that was fine, she would drive herself, if Mrs. Bailey would just come along to bring the car back after dawn. I’ve never heard any details of that drive, but they made it.

I was born about three-thirty in the morning. The call woke my father who said that for a third girl they could have waited until nine o’clock. He loved that story when I was younger, but later apologized to me, telling me that he little knew at the time just how lucky he was.
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Do you know what your first words were?

Mom always said that I started talking when I was nine months old and haven’t noticeably stopped since.

My first word was “baby,” which my mother always thought made a lot of sense, since it’s what everyone said to me: “Look at the baby!” “Hello, baby!” “Where’s the baby?” “What a pretty baby!”

My second word was “Becca,” my sister’s name. My crib was on the other side of the wall from her bed and after Mom tucked her in at night I would kick the wall right by her head and chant “Becca! Becca! Becca!” until she came and got me to sleep in her bed. When Mom came up to bed she would put me back in my crib, saying “Why can’t you leave that child to sleep alone!”

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Did you have a favorite planet as a child?



My elder sister is eighteen years older than I am. She went off to college the year I was born--in fact, my baptism was postponed until the day after Anne's graduation, because the grandparents were already planning to travel to us that weekend. So throughout my childhood she was an intermittent presence, coming home on the weekends and holidays with a suitcase full of laundry and marvelous stories to share.

That was also the period when she was establishing her independence from my parents, the tail end of the 1960s and into the 1970s, a very different time from the Great Depression, in which my parents' values were forged. There were a lot of conflicts. Anne would say something provocative--sometimes deliberately, but mostly not--and Mom would say something dismissive and Anne would snap at her and Dad would defend her and attempt, in his booming bass, to explain why she was wrong. It was awful.

Not that I was immune from this--our father was very loving, but also a passionate man, with a big voice, and not the world's largest supply of tact. It was easy to feel that he was yelling at us when he got the least bit heated in his delivery. Beckie tended to duck and cover when Dad got going, but Anne and I never mastered that trick.

When Anne saw that her exchanges with Dad, or his lectures and criticisms of either of us, were upsetting me, she took me aside and told me to think about Jupiter. "It's beautiful," she said, showing me pictures of the Great Red Spot in National Geographic, "and it has thirteen moons. Learn their names."

When I was about eight, I decided that I wanted to learn to play bridge. Beckie happily gave up the spot at the table she'd never wanted and I got to play whenever Anne hadn't brought along a friend or lover who, while being otherwise generally unacceptable to my parents, would always be welcome if they could make a fourth.



Io, Europa, Ganymede, Callisto...

My dad always wanted to be a teacher and loved lecturing, but was not a great instructor. His explanations tended to be far too complicated, with too much information thrown in all at once. And when his pupil became confused, or forgot a key point, he would become frustrated and critical.



Amalthea, Himalia, Elara...

I was a terrible bridge player. I've never had a head for strategy and despite an excellent memory I've never been able to keep track of what cards are played. Bidding made little sense to me, even at its most basic level, and if my father--with whom I was almost always paired--tried any of the more complicated codes he tried to teach me, I could never grasp how I was supposed to respond. I struggled through each hand, veering between utter confusion and abject boredom, neither of which made for good play.



Pasiphae, Sinope, Lysithea, Carme, Ananke, Leda...

Of course, Anne was no joy to play with, either. Stressed out by my parents' critical attitude, she would chainsmoke and snap through the hands. One of the worst moments came when it was my turn to be the "dummy" (the partner of the winning bidder, who turns their cards face up and lets the winner play both hands against the other pair) and Anne said, in something much like her Wicked Witch of the West voice (a staple terror of my childhood) "You're the dummy, dummy!" I burst into tears, ran from the table and hid. She was terribly sorry, it was all a joke, but I just couldn't see the humor in it then.



Themisto, Metis, Adrastea, Thebe...

There were thirteen moons when I started playing. By 1979 there were seventeen. That was something that always startled me, the idea that our schoolbooks could be wrong, that new information was always arriving. When my mother studied chemistry in the 1940s she had to learn the nine amino acids by heart, but by the time I reached ninth grade biology there were twenty-three and no one expected us to know them all. Today we've identified seventy-nine moons. That would have lasted through several rubbers, at least.

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What was your Dad like when you were a child?

Dad was 47 years old when I was born, so in some ways he always seemed old to me. He and my mother had been married for almost twenty years at that point, and in the same job and home for ten years, so they were very settled in their lives. I was a complete surprise and threw a wrench into things in many ways, but he always let me know that he was delighted with me and wouldn’t have changed a thing.

My father was 6‘4” and seemed tall enough to touch the moon. When I was just six weeks old he fell on the ice and broke his arm—thankfully on the trip after he had carried me in from the car—so some of my earliest memories of him are “The Elephant Game,” which I only understood much later were the physical therapy exercises he did to restore strength and flexibility to that arm.

Dad was the minister and in our church, Sunday School came before church and once I was too old for the nursery I was expected to sit through the adult service next to my mother. I grew up listening to stories about myself from the pulpit and having him say “God Bless You,” in his beautiful bass voice when I sneezed in church.

He was very affectionate and much more emotionally open than my mother was. He would openly weep at romantic movies and loved for me to sit on his lap and snuggle with him. He could also get very angry at times—until I was an adolescent that was more directed at my sister than at me, but his loud voice made it seem that he was yelling even when he had no intention of doing so.

Like many families of the era, Dad was the “fun” parent, the one who took us for ice cream, or to McDonald’s, or out for a late movie on Thanksgiving night, while Mom set the chores and kept the rules and made us stop playing for dinner, or bedtime. I’m told that in earlier days he was perfectly able to cook for himself and Anne, but by the time I came along there was some combination of more money and learned helplessness, but he still took charge of the grill for backyard London Broil in the summertime.

Since we lived in the parsonage, just across the driveway from the church, he was around much more than many fathers. He worked in the mornings at his office in the church, came home for lunch, then spent the afternoon calling on parishioners who were sick, or going through other crises. When I was little he would take me along when calling on families with children, and by the time I was in junior high I would often go along with him once a week when he went up to the hospitals in Albany. On Sunday afternoons we would drive down to see my grandmother in the nursing home. Many of my best memories of him are of conversations we had in the car together.

He was never athletic and not much of a sports fan, though he always enjoyed watching the baseball game. He was a Rockefeller Republican, voting for Democrats in the presidential elections and trying to keep his more liberal leanings confined to the Christian life he lived largely for others. If he hadn’t felt a call to the ministry he would have been a history teacher and was a scholar of the Protestant Reformation and a big fan of historical fiction. He loved to read and happily encouraged me to read any book in his library that caught my eye. He tried hard to teach me the habit of reading a daily newspaper and though that never caught, he did make me see current events on a national and international scale as relevant to our lives and worthy of my attention.

Although I think I’m actually better than he was at telling stories, I learned it from him, the art of observing the world for the purpose of distilling its meaning and finding its lessons. He had a hard time letting go of the details and sticking to the point, and so I also learned from him the joy of digressions, of conversations that start on one topic and drift over the course of hours into far different regions. I still find myself wanting to tell him things and to hear how he would incorporate them into his Sunday sermon.
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What were your grandparents like?

I didn’t get to have a long relationship with any of my grandparents—the first died when I was three and the last when I was twelve. What I know of them is largely from stories told by my parents and sisters and, more recently, from going through the family memorabilia and finding photos, letters, and other artifacts that flesh out their stories.

These were my mother’s parents: Murphy and Mitt. He was a carpenter who always resented being made to leave school at fourteen, a resentment that manifested in his proudly and whole-heartedly supporting my mother in her education. He was a very quiet man, loving and gentle. Mitt was more feisty, with a temper that made her relationship with my mother problematic, but also many fears and anxieties—she was so terrified of thunder that she would hide under the bed when a storm blew up. They worked hard all their lives, keeping their farm going and the family fed through the Great Depression. Mom was always proud of the Sunday dinners, where up to twenty folks would come around after church to eat with them, because “there was always food at Miss Mitt’s”.

A lot of what I remember of them isn’t about them, specifically, but about the farm in North Carolina. I don’t remember them ever visiting, though they did when I was very little. It was always us, driving south and south forever, until finally arriving at their place. I remember the smell of the sandy dirt after the rain, the strangely pleasant, rotting smell of the cold house where the freezer was, and the warm, dry smell of the old tobacco barns in the sunshine. I remember drinking cold Mountain Dew from a bottle, back when you couldn’t get it up north and it was the taste of summer. I remember picking corn and beans out of the fields and playing at the feet of the women shucking and shelling the vegetables for dinner. There was always work to do.

On the morning of her 50th anniversary, my grandmother had a major stroke. There was nothing to be done in those days—they got her dressed and put her in a chair at the reception while friends and family trooped by to pay their respects and she had no idea who any of them were. That was a horrifying time for my mother, but I remember Granny as one of the best playmates—we would play “pretend” and make believe that she didn’t know my name, or that she was a little girl like me, or that she didn’t know her way around the house she’d lived in for decades, and she was utterly convincing. She would give me slices of white bread with cold butter as a snack. In the morning, I would slip out of the bed I shared with my mother in the front room, sneak as quietly through my grandfather’s dark, shaded room as a three year old could, and out onto the back porch, where my grandmother slept in a tiny storeroom, almost filled by her big bed. I would open the door and shout “Boo, Granny!” and she would holler “Boo, ‘Lizbeth!” and I would jump on her bed and we would play while the rest of the household got up and ready for the day. One morning I shouted, but she didn’t respond, and my mother remembered being woken by my screams over Granny’s body.

I only have a few vivid memories of my grandfather, despite his having outlived my grandmother by two years. They may even all have been from the same trip, when I was five. Beckie was fourteen that year and somehow Dad got the idea of teaching her to drive on the dirt roads around the farm. She managed to put the car in one of the drainage ditches—she didn’t have much beginner’s luck. Dad tried various strategies to get the car back on the road and as he worked, shouting occasionally for Beckie to hit the gas, I kept jumping up and down and saying “Should I go get Poppo? Can I go get Poppo now?” Dad said “You sound like you don’t believe we can do this,” and I responded very seriously, “I don’t.” They both laughed and Beckie said “At least she’s honest!” Finally, finally Dad said “OK, Elizabeth, go!” I raced down the track to the barn where my grandfather was working and he fired up the tractor and let me ride along, holding onto the strap of his overalls as we chugged back to haul out the car.

On the long summer evenings the family would gather on the porch of the house that Poppo built, watching the occasional traffic pass by on the road. I was tearing around, probably being a pest, and Poppo told me to run around the house and he would time me. I ran and I ran and every time I came back to the big, broad steps, he would tell me my time and then say “Do it again. Run faster now,” and I’d be off again. When we drove away, I twisted around in the back seat to watch him wave to us as we pulled out of the drive and onto the highway for the long drive back to New York. A few hours after we arrived home, Uncle MG called to say that Poppo had died.


My father’s parents were very different. Raised in Kansas and Michigan, they married and moved to New York in 1919. My grandfather tried to establish himself in the financial world, but after the man from the next office jumped out the window in 1929, Grandfather decided it was time to get out of the business by a safer route. He spent the Depression taking an array of jobs—setting up distilleries in Canada, working on the Chicago World’s Fair—many of which kept him away from home for long stretches, leaving my grandmother to raise Dad alone, or with the company of her father, who lived with them for several years. She desperately wanted a girl, but miscarried many times after Dad was born—we now know that she was Rh negative, but in those days it was just a tragic mystery. She thought the moon rose and set on my father and would hear no criticism of him. They wrote to each other every week for more than twenty years—I have reams of her letters to him, filled with the details of her life, that reveal a surprisingly funny, money-fixated woman devoted to her husband and her church, but delighted to travel and find adventure.

She was a wonderful grandmother when my eldest sister was little. She would arrive by train with her suitcases stuffed with presents for her namesake and spend a week or more before Christmas baking cookies that filled the entire dining room table. She was a snappy dresser, with a certain elegance, and everyone was shocked when she threw herself down on the sled with Anne and played in the Michigan snow. She thought Anne was the most perfect child in the world and sent her cards and letters and treats throughout the year and begged in her letters for news of Anne’s health and latest accomplishments.

A year before I was born, Grandmother had her first major stroke. Throughout my childhood she spent stretches in the nursing home, returning to sit awkwardly in a green power lift chair. Her face was partially paralyzed by strokes and her gaze was glassy and unfocused. My parents would set me on her lap, where she would pluck at my clothing with long fingers, or they would tell me to hug her. She smelled medicinal and unsettling and her ability to talk changed as her brain tried to rearrange itself after each stroke. By the time I was five, she needed constant care and was placed in a nursing home about half an hour south of our home upstate. My grandfather couldn’t bear to see his “brown eyed Peg” so debilitated and never visited her there, but my father drove down every Sunday afternoon, despite the fact that she often had no idea who he was and would sob for her “Dickie boy,” and wonder why he didn’t come instead of this balding, middle-aged man she didn’t recognize. Visiting her was about equal parts scary and boring, but I always enjoyed the drive there and back with my dad. She passed away when I was eight.

My grandfather always seemed like a very stern, somewhat distant figure. He and my grandmother lived in a two bedroom apartment in Mount Vernon and when we visited my mother would make up the couch cushions on the living room floor as a bed for me. After his many jobs in the 30s he landed as the Executive Secretary of the International Merchant Tailors’ Association, where the main part of his duties was to organize their annual conferences in exotic locations like Miami or Chicago. He would also entertain visiting members from other countries and their breakfront—the same one that stands in my dining room today, was filled with gifts from around the world. The less-breakable ones were kept in the righthand door of that cabinet and I was allowed to pull out the sake cups and figurines and create elaborate games and fantasies around them.

If we were there on a weekday he would take me into the office on the train and I would spend the morning being given busy work—I remember using the porcelain stamp licker and drawing on scrap letterhead. His long-time secretary, Irma, was a very fashionable woman and she would take me out at lunch to Saks Fifth Avenue or Macy’s and buy me “a good dress,” just about the only clothing bought for me in those years of handmades and hand-me-downs. We would have sandwiches at one of the local lunch counters and bring one back to my grandfather and then my Dad and Beckie, usually, would pick me up and we’d go on an afternoon adventure somewhere in the city. On Saturdays my grandfather would swap his suit jacket for a cardigan, but I can’t picture him without a tie, even after he retired at eighty. It was shocking to find photos of him working the farms as a teen in Abilene, wearing nothing but overalls and a straw hat.

He could be a real curmudgeon—I think he never really knew how to interact with children except by teasing. The only time I’ve been stung by a bee was when he told me it was bothering a flower and I should squeeze it out of there. Another time, when I was five and we were out to an Italian restaurant, he was horrified to see me pick up the shrimp from my scampi by the tails to eat it and was loudly critical of my mother for failing to teach me to peel shrimp with a knife and fork. He never understood my father’s calling to the ministry and often criticized what he saw as an incomprehensible failure by my father to prioritize money in his life. When he died, at eighty-six, he left us much better off, financially, than we had been. At his funeral the minister kept referring to what a Brooklyn accent rendered as “Mistah Huntah,” so my last memory of my grandfather is of struggling not to giggle in a pew full of black-clad family.

And then I turned twelve and all my grandparents were gone.
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Has your relationship with your siblings changed over the years?

In some ways my relationship with my sisters has changed profoundly, but in other ways not at all.

The three of us are all nine years apart. That is, Beckie was born when Anne was almost nine and I was born when Beckie was almost ten. Anne left for college the year I was born—my baptism was scheduled for the day after her graduation, since the grandparents would all be in town for that. Beckie left home when I was nine.

When I was little Anne was more like an aunt, in some ways—an exciting occasional presence in my life. She came home for summers when I was very little, and for holidays. When we were out alone together people automatically assumed that she was my mother. She bought me books and fed me strange things and took me exploring. Whatever interest or hobby she developed, she shared with me—I fondly remember the grave-rubbing phase and the hiking phase. She taught me to cook, mostly by telling me to make it up and assume it would be fine. In the summer Anne & George would take me along with them to Block Island and we would climb the bluffs and body surf in the waves.

My parents made a real effort to promote a relationship between us, sending me to stay with her for a week at a time, starting while she was still living in the dorms at Wellesley and I would have been no more than three. By the time I was eight they would put me on the Peter Pan bus and let me make the journey to Boston on my own, where she thought nothing of handing me T tokens and telling me where to meet her after work. She introduced me to science fiction and gave me Our Bodies, Our Selves, and taught me to be a feminist. I adored her and thought she was the coolest person in the world.

Beckie and I were much closer on a day-to-day basis while we were both at home. In most of my baby pictures it is Beckie who is holding me. My first word was “baby,” but my second was “Becca.” When she came to bed I would pound on the wall until she came to get me to snuggle with her—while my mother accused her of “never leaving that child alone!” Finally they put an extra bed in my room and Beckie slept there—the only way to keep me in my own bed. My mother still made most of our clothes in those days and Beckie had to endure my being dressed in scaled down copies of her clothes. We would watch tv together every afternoon when she got home from school—One Life to Live and General Hospital, followed by Sesame Street, Mister Rogers, and The Electric Company, before Dad got home and switched to the news.

When I was little and our grandparents were still alive, we drove to North Carolina and back at least twice each year—with me sprawled out and napping on Beckie in the days before carseats for toddlers. She got dragged along on the family vacation to Disneyworld, while I tagged along on trips to visit the colleges she was checking out. She had to endure my painfully honest comments chiming in at the most awkward times throughout her adolescence.

Anne’s relationship with our parents was always turbulent. The values that she embraced as a young woman in the 70s were very different from their Depression Era morality. My mother was always ready with a judgmental or dismissive comment and my father was very emotionally open and willing to go toe to toe with her in arguments that shook the house. Anne always wanted me to be on her team, to recognize our parents’ shortcomings and join her in criticizing and rebelling against them. I think that by the time I hit puberty, alone in the house with them, that—along with everything else—made me feel awkward with Anne and we grew more distant. And with Beckie also out of the house, I had somewhere else to go.

I spent much of Beckie’s college years hanging out with her at Smith. As a tall, precocious kid, I was generally assumed to be one of the more baby-faced freshmen and spent many long weekends and breaks roaming the campus while Beckie worked, or studied, and tagging along with her and her friends to movies, concerts, and lectures. When I wasn’t there I ran up huge long distance bills calling her almost every afternoon.

After Beckie graduated she moved to Boston. The plan was for her to stay with Anne and her partner, George, for a few months while she found a job and an apartment, but Beckie ended up living with them for nine years. During that time I visited often, so I was spending more time with Anne again.

There are lots of fun stories of the Hunter Sisters from those days. One time George made the mistake of referring to the musical “1776” as “forgettable,” so we sang the entire score from top to bottom, it having been a favorite to sing on car trips. Or there was the time that TV Guide said that record companies mistrusted MTV’s promises to play their videos at certain rates, but since there was “no way for them to tell,” they were having to take MTV’s word on it. “There’s no way to tell” entered our family language for easily-verifiable information.

While the gravitational pull of Boston was strong, I attempted to elude my fate by going to college in New York, but after two years there I bowed to the inevitable, moved to Boston—living partly with my sisters that first summer—and transferred to Wellesley.

While I was there, first Beckie and then Anne & George, bought condos and moved apart. Anne & George went into a big Indian cooking phase, at the time that my IBS was making Indian food really difficult for me to eat, so I spent less time with them. Beckie was living alone for the first time and especially once I had graduated we spent a lot of time hanging out together.

It's funny, because the big age difference between us always seemed so important when we were younger--in many ways it was defining of our relationship. But by the time I was about twenty-five, it really didn't matter any more. We were all working women, living in apartments, managing our relationships...shocking as it seems, we'd grown up. Though I do have to remind Anne from time to time not to tell stories about how awful I could be when I was little!

In the mid-90s, Beckie got married and I moved to California to try my luck on the West Coast, so we necessarily spent less time together. Then I met Jason and we married and moved to London, where both my sisters visited, and I had a cheap calling plan, so we spoke often. When we decided to move back to Boston, Beckie did us the enormous favor of finding a house and dealing with the purchase. Not long after our move back, we founded Theatre@First with Beckie and worked together closely on that.

When our daughter, Alice, turned three, Anne announced that she was exercising her big-sister right to have her come stay at least one weekend a month. Alice loves staying with Anne & George—much as I did when I was younger. It’s sometimes funny to hear about their adventures together, because they are similar in many ways to my time with them. Every summer they take her along for a week on Block Island, just as they did when I was a kid.

During my parents' decline, we all had to pull together to help care for them and make decisions. It was such a relief that we were all on the same page about the big issues. My therapist, listening to me talk about dealing with my mother's medical care--because I'm the one without a day job that could easily take her to appointments, that part fell to me--asked once if I felt like my sisters were doing enough and I said "We each do all that we possibly can, and most days that's enough. And if it isn't enough, it's still all that we can." Having that kind of mutual support made that awful time bearable.

Both of them are getting ready to retire and it will be interesting to see what changes that brings to their lives and our relationships. I talk to each of my sisters at least a couple of times a week and see them once a month, or more. We still celebrate holidays together--usually at my house.

In some ways nothing has changed--Anne is still the rebellious older daughter, Beckie is still the peacemaker, and I'm probably still the brat. In other ways, it's all changed--we're none of us young any more, even if they forget sometimes. But in the most important ways it's just what it always was--we're sisters, we grew up in the same family even if our parents were pretty different over time, we share a common history and language and connection that is different from anything I share with anyone else in the world.
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It's hard to decide which trip qualifies as "my first big trip," because travelling was something my family just did. The year before I was born my parents had taken my sisters to Europe on a six-week sabbatical trip, so that was the Big Trip often discussed throughout my childhood and I grew up eager to know when my turn for Europe would come. We lived in Upstate New York with grandparents just outside New York City and my mom's side of the family in North Carolina, so thousand-mile roadtrips south were something we did at least two or three times a year. I know that my first flight on an airplane was at six weeks, when my mother took me down to see my grandparents. My father led bustrips for church groups each year and I visited Montreal, Philadelphia, Boston, and Washington, DC that way, without remembering which city was which year. When I was in 3rd grade my mother was elected to the School Board and went each year to the national convention, taking my father and me along to Miami, Los Angeles, and San Francisco when the dates lined up with my school breaks. There were a lot of trips.

The one I'm going to pick is the trip to Florida when I was six. We drove down to North Carolina, as usual, and spent at least a few days visiting family there, but then continued on "South of the Border". Finally I got to visit that tourist mecca, familiar to anyone who's driven I-95 past the Mason-Dixon line. We visited a few more family members in South Carolina--my Aunt Myrl, who was really a first cousin of my mother's, and her sister, Margaret, as well as one of my mother's bridesmaids who had married a pediatrician and settled in Columbia. We drove down to Savannah and had a magical dinner at the Pirate's House. We continued driving and spent a day and night in Jacksonville, where my strongest memory is an exhibit at the Children's Museum where I could climb through a model of the human digestive tract and slide out the end, and my mother left one of her favorite dresses in a drawer at the hotel, so we had to turn around and drive back more than an hour down the road. We also spent a night in St. Augustine and went to the nighttime presentation of the history of that oldest settlement, of which I mainly remember flaming torches. We visited Cape Canaveral and the Kennedy Space Center and visited the Edwards, family friends with a daughter just my age. And then we went to Orlando! We spent two or three days at DisneyWorld--this was before even EPCOT was built. My memories of that visit to the park are mostly of standing in long lines, but the stories my family tell include me disappearing and coming back with the life story of everyone behind us in line, and me falling asleep in the Hall of Presidents and napping all the way through the American Revolution and the Civil War. I have clearer memories of the water-skiers at Cypress Gardens, and I'm sure we stopped at at least a couple of other attractions that have faded from memory.

Now that I try to pull up memories, it's interesting how much has faded and what still stands out. Somewhere I convinced my parents to pay for a drawing done by a sidewalk artist, who made my shirt blue instead of the white it really was, and that portrait hung in my parents' bedroom for many years afterward. We ate at Morrison's Roast Beef almost every day--an all-you-can-eat cafeteria-style chain where I fell in love with the hot open roast beef sandwiches. I tried Key Lime pie for the first time and still don't care for it. It was incredibly hot for much of the trip, especially while we were in Orlando--there are pictures of six-year old me with sweat standing out on my brow, and I think that trip is what convinced my Dad to start getting air conditioning in our future cars. I remember the orange briefcase, handed down from my father, that held my books, toys, and drawing materials. I remember singing show tunes and Scottish airs and rounds along the highway. I remember sleeping on Beckie, who was incredibly patient for a fifteen year old dragged along on a six-year-old's dream trip.

As I think about it, that's why I'm picking that trip: it was the first time that a trip focused on what I would enjoy, not on visiting family, or attending a meeting, or entertaining a church group, or--as would soon become the case--visiting colleges. My parents wanted me to love travelling as much as they did and I can see now the effort and expense they went to in order to teach me the joy of it. That was a good trip.
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Can you remember a time that you were really upset as a child?

When I was little, maybe three or four years old, I had a security blanket that I called my “bata”. It was originally the bottoms from my favorite pair of pajamas that had slowly worn into scraps. I loved the texture of it and the smell, especially when my mom would iron it.

One day I lost it somewhere in the house. I suspect it was a Sunday afternoon, because it was daytime, but my parents and my middle sister were all hanging out in the living room, reading. I looked everywhere for it, but couldn’t find it anywhere.

I asked my mother to help me find it, but she said no. I asked my sister, usually willing to help me however I needed, but she said no. I asked my father and he asked me impossible questions: where did I have it last? when’s the last time I remembered having it? I didn’t know. He wouldn’t get up and help me look.

I remember pleading with them to help me, getting more and more upset as they tried first to reason with me and then to suggest that I calm down and try looking for it. My mother said that if I hadn’t found it by the time she finished the paper, she would help me then. But that would be HOURS and I needed my bata NOW!

Finally I gave up on the horrible, heartless people of my family. I threw myself out of the room and stomped up the stairs declaring that I never EVER wanted to see ANY of them EVER again. I slammed the door of my bedroom, then opened it again to declare: NOT EVEN PICTURES!

My sister came upstairs with my bata a few minutes later. And “Not even pictures?” is still my sisters’ question to me when I’m super annoyed with someone. Not. Even. Pictures.
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[personal profile] gilana gave me an awesome gift! For a year, StoryWorth will send me writing prompts and at the end of the year turn the stories I write into a keepsake book. I've decided to also share them here--I'll use the tag "storyworth" to keep them together--so we can all hope for more regular posting from me. Gilly says she loves my stories and I'm excited to be encouraged to do more writing and maybe even to tell some new ones, though many of them may be familiar. Enjoy!

How did you choose your children's names?

When I was little someone—probably one of my sisters—told me that if I had been a boy, I would have been named Alexander after one of my mother’s uncles and, I later discovered, one of my first ancestors to come to America from Scotland. When I asked my mother why she hadn’t named me Alexandra, a name I think would have suited me very well, she would only say “Tsk! That’s no name for a girl baby.” An inveterate rebel, I decided immediately that when I had a girl I would definitely name her Alexandra.

When I finally became pregnant and we started talking about names I still thought that I would choose Alexandra. But after a visit to my husband’s Great-Uncle Jack and his wife, Alice, I began thinking that might be an even better choice.

Jack and Alice were a wonderful couple. Married for more than fifty years when I met them, they were still clearly in love—he was her cowboy and she was his princess. They were old-fashioned Broadway folk—Jack played Benedict in the first professional New York production of Much Ado About Nothing, staged in Central Park by Joe Papp years before the construction of the Delacorte Theater, and he had a successful career in theatre, film, and television and a suprise post-retirement gig as the voice of Subaru. Great-Aunt Alice loved to tell stories of the more famous actors and directors Jack worked with—George C. Scott and Colleen Dewhurst, Jerry Stiller and Anne Meara, James Earl Jones, Anthony Hopkins, Angela Lansbury, and so many more.

They never had any children and I thought that naming our child for her would be a way of letting Great-Aunt Alice know that she would be remembered and treasured as part of our family. It also satisfied my mother’s naming advice, “No more than five letters, no more than two syllables,” which she never followed and perhaps contributed to none of her children using our given names. Alice was only the 400th most popular girl name the year before our daughter was born, but one that we thought most people would recognize, thanks to Lewis Carroll. We liked the resonance with Alice in Wonderland, Alice B. Toklas, Alice Roosevelt Longworth, and other famous Alices.

When I mentioned to our parents that we were thinking of “Alice,” each of our fathers said “Oh, after my grandmother,” and we said yes, of course. Even though that wasn’t the original motivation, it was good to know that this was a name that would connect our daughter with both sides of her family.

We had a couple of other options—Julianne and Claire—that each have their own stories and, amusingly, were chosen for the daughters of two of my ex-boyfriends who were born the same month as ours. But Alice was always the front-runner and as soon as she was laid on my chest I knew that was the right name for our kid.

Before we filled out the birth certificate we called Great-Aunt Alice to ask her blessing. She laughed and, I think, cried just a little, and told us that we didn’t have to do that. We told her that we wanted to and then she admitted that she had always rather hated her name—it sounded so old-fashioned to her. I suggested that she didn’t have a marvelous aunt to be reminded of when she heard it. We took our Alice to visit her great-great-aunt early and often before her death in 2016 and they always had a great deal of sympathy and fondness for each other. We try to pass on some of Great-Aunt Alice’s wonderful stories and remind our Alice often of her beautiful home overlooking the Hudson River.

Our Alice enjoys her name, even though it has gained in popularity, breaking into the Top 100 a year after she was born. There are a couple of other Alices at school, but never one in the same class. The biggest problem is that so many people mistakenly hear “Alex” and think her name must be Alexandra.
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My father died seven years ago. We're coming up on the second anniversay of my mother's death and I'm finally delving into the memorabilia that ended up in my basement when we moved her to assisted living. I'm scanning in as much as possible, in hopes that afterward I can box everything up in a more organized fashion and not ever have to go back through the originals. Among some of the letters that my father sent to my mother while he was in Europe was a report on the summer of 1948, which he spent mainly at workcamps in Germany and France, with some travel in between, as a break from his student ministry in Manchester, UK.

If you'd like to read it, the scans are availble here. If you open the first page you should be able to click from page to page after that. It's long and sometimes a bit dry, but there are some amazing passages.

The first part of the summer--and the bulk of the report--was spent with a group of German, American, and Dutch men and women in Munster. They worked to clear rubble from the university, but also to build an intentional Christian community together, despite their national differences. This was obviously a foundational experience for my father, one that honed his faith, his commitment to building and leading community, and his enduring interest in forging and maintaining international ties.

I found it fascinating. I heard many bits and pieces of the story throughout my childhood. Many of the names are familiar from anecdotes and memories not included here, and I met a few of the people mentioned when we visited England and travelled in Europe when I was a child. But I've never heard the whole story in detail. Reading it was like spending an evening listening to my dad lay it all out for me and it was a joy to hear it in his voice.

But beyond the personal, I think it is an amazing snapshot of post-war Europe, the difficulties of a peace that we take for granted today, the spiritual effects of living amid destruction, and the triumph of finding connections across barriers of language and experience.
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As I believe I've mentioned, Jason's mother died in early June. A lovely obituary for her is available here. We went out to Idaho in July for the family reunion she'd helped to plan, which became a chance for her family to mourn her together.

Jason's dad, Steve, decided that the memorial event in Seattle would be a gathering in their garden this past Saturday, so we flew out on Wednesday night. We spent Thursday puttering around and Friday mostly working in the garden--one of Trish's gardening friends came over to get us started and point out what needed doing. I was rather amazed at myself for doing that much yard work, but it was oddly satisfying and felt like a real way of honoring Trish's memory.

On Saturday people packed into their beautiful garden. There were co-workers of Steve, people from the neighborhood, friends from the book club she founded more than thirty years ago and members of the chamber choir she had joined more than forty years ago, and about twenty members of her extended family--all her siblings, a couple of their kids, three of her first cousins, plus their assorted partners. Everyone expressed their shock at her sudden passing and told stories of her generosity in their lives. One of her friends brought the sheet music for Wild Mountain Thyme and Jason's brother, Eric, accompanied us on his violin as we sang "Will ye go, lassie, go" in the lovely Seattle afternoon in the shade of the trees Trish had planted.

It was a beautiful farewell to a life full of friends and family, music, literature, and love.
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While I was in Northern Ireland last summer, I started making a list of all the stories I tell that I'd like to write down. This is one of them.

Like most families, I assume, we have running jokes and catch phrases within the family that persist over decades.

One day in the early 80s, I was sitting around the living room of my sisters' apartment on Prospect Hill, reading. Anne was reading TV Guide when she suddenly said "What?!" and thrust her magazine at Beckie to read. B. read the article, looked at Anne and said "There's no way to tell?!" and Anne said "Exactly!" and B. handed it to me.

It was an article about the record companies being annoyed with MTV, because the contracts under which they provided music videos to the channel stipulated that certain of their videos would be played at various frequencies--once an hour, once every three hours, once a day, etc. They suspected that MTV was not actually honoring their contracts, but since there was no way for them to tell, they were just having to take MTV's word for it.

This became one of our long-lasting catch-phrases. Wonder if Royal East is open on Monday's? There's no way to tell. Wonder what's playing at the Somerville Theatre this weekend? There's no way to tell. Wonder what George wants to do for dinner? There's no way to tell.

There's just no way to tell.

Easter Day

Apr. 17th, 2017 12:13 am
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Lately, Sundays have become especially busy. If I only have two or three events on my calendar for a Sunday, that's a pretty easy-going day--sometimes there are five. Perhaps because of that, today felt only moderately busy.

I was surprised to find, as Easter approached, that I was thinking of my mother more than usual. It felt so strange to be planning for the day without figuring out how to include her. Perhaps it's because for her it was still a very religious holiday, or just because I have so many memories, so many pictures of us all gathered in the sunshine in our Sunday best, with her tucked between her giant girls.

This year I actually wondered if we had to celebrate Easter as a family. And then I thought sure, keeping the tradition of getting the family together a few times a year is no bad thing. I wondered if I might turn to my sisters and ask what plan they might come up with that didn't involve my house, or me cooking. And I thought about hiring a chef, which I've done a few times, or going to a restaurant. But in the end I decided that I did want to cook and to gather family and friends around the table.

The day started early, getting to First Parish by 8am so we would have time to eat breakfast there and practice our skit before the choir gathered at 8:30. Jo and I were performing a piece based on The Yellow Tutu, with narration by our fabulous DRE and some mean-girl assistance from members of the choir. It was short and sweet and involved the indelible image of the two of us dancing in front of the congregation wearing tutus on our heads.

Our minister had asked us to wear silly hats and I'd decided to get this blue fascinator, which was an utter hoot to wear. The adult and children's choirs collaborated on "Easter Bonnet" and we sang lots of joyful hymns. We also did a responsive reading that I found really moving, adapted from a sermon by Nadia Bolz-Weber:

Some Modern Beatitudes )

During her invocation for communion, Marta also gave us a chance to speak the names of the dead who were in our thoughts today and I was so grateful for the chance to say my mother's name, to invoke the presence that has been hovering over me this week.

Alice had a grand time in the Easter Egg Hunt--her first year in the graveyard with the big kids. We stayed for the first part of the second service, in which Alice was one of the readers, while Jason and I reprised our performances, and then snuck out. The car said it was 82F as we pulled out and I was dreading turning on the oven for dinner. But while I took a nap, Jason turned on the AC and it was actually pleasant inside throughout the day. Alice found her Easter basket and seemed to enjoy the various treats and toys I'd included in it.

While Jason de-cluttered and got the dining room set for dinner, I roasted the lamb that had been marinating since yesterday, on top of potatoes, onions, mushrooms and garlic, which I seved with a very tasty demi-glace. I made way too many deviled eggs, with the help of Lisa, Paulo, and George at various points. Beckie & Neil brought the traditional too-much-nosh (shrimps and cheeses and summer sausage and pate and olives, oh my!). Anne & G. brought Greek-style braised green beans and I made a chopped Greek salad and heated up some Hawaiian rolls that miraculously survived several months in the freezer to be wonderfully soft and tasty. Dave and Jo collaborated to decorate the spiced carrot chiffon cake I had made yesterday with honey-cream cheese ice cream and pecans. By the time Hatem got out of work and could join us, we were just about ready to put it all on the table.

The food was reasonably good (not the best I've ever managed, but no one complained) and it seemed like an especially good group of people and conversations. Jo and Beckie helped enormously with the clean-up and by the time everyone had left around 5:30, another half hour got the kitchen to a state where I felt I could leave it. So I took another short nap, rising in time to be awake when the Mourning Becomes Electra arrived for a line-thru of the whole show.

I was able to do the whole thing without my script, though I did get confused and have to call "line" a couple of times. I felt pretty good about it and most other people are also in pretty good shape. This is going to be a really powerful show and there are a lot of dark moments, but we had fun together and it was really nice to be in a room with most of the cast, since that hasn't happened much yet. Jason got Alice to bed during one of the stretches when he's not on stage, but I was able to pop up and kiss her goodnight.

The cast and crew took off and after a break, it was time to finish up the kitchen and get the garbage, recycling, and compost to the curb. And now, I think I can say that I am well and truly done. I'm very excited that Alice doesn't have school in the morning.
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[livejournal.com profile] gilana has taken the slideshow I made for the memorial service and turned it into a YouTube video. Thank you, Gilly!


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[livejournal.com profile] gilana has taken the slideshow I made for the memorial service and turned it into a YouTube video. Thank you, Gilly!


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We had a relatively small gathering this year, but that meant that we were able to all fit around the table.

Food Notes Behind the Cut )

All-in-all, this meal didn't thrill me like Christmas dinner did, but it was a lovely day and nice to sit around the table with all the windows open and the breezes carrying away the heat of the oven. Huge props to [livejournal.com profile] jason237 for all his assistance and to [livejournal.com profile] muffyjo for pitching in to help out in so many ways.
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We had a relatively small gathering this year, but that meant that we were able to all fit around the table.

Food Notes Behind the Cut )

All-in-all, this meal didn't thrill me like Christmas dinner did, but it was a lovely day and nice to sit around the table with all the windows open and the breezes carrying away the heat of the oven. Huge props to [livejournal.com profile] jason237 for all his assistance and to [livejournal.com profile] muffyjo for pitching in to help out in so many ways.
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I've been making Christmas dinner for my family regularly--not every year, but many--since 1991. I usually make roast beef and Yorkshire pudding. This year somehow it all came out and came together better than ever before, so I thought I should write it down while it's still fresh in my mind.

Read more... )

We were all sad that [livejournal.com profile] bex77 and [livejournal.com profile] audioboy couldn't be with us and Dad had a bad spell this afternoon that threatened to make him miss dinner, as well. But he rallied and it was really nice to gather around the table for some family time at Christmas.

I hope you've all had a wonderful day!
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I've been making Christmas dinner for my family regularly--not every year, but many--since 1991. I usually make roast beef and Yorkshire pudding. This year somehow it all came out and came together better than ever before, so I thought I should write it down while it's still fresh in my mind.

Read more... )

We were all sad that [livejournal.com profile] bex77 and [livejournal.com profile] audioboy couldn't be with us and Dad had a bad spell this afternoon that threatened to make him miss dinner, as well. But he rallied and it was really nice to gather around the table for some family time at Christmas.

I hope you've all had a wonderful day!

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